片名: 移魂女郎
* TIME IT WAS AND WHAT A TIME IT WAS *
* IT WAS *
* A TIME OF INNOCENCE *
* A TIME OF CONFIDENCES *
* LONG AGO IT MUST BE * [ Weeping ]
* I HAVE A PHOTOGRAPH *
* PRESERVE YOUR MEMORIES *
* THEY'RE ALL THAT'S LEFT YOU **
你有没有把梦境与生活混为一谈过? Have you ever confused a dream with life?
或者有现金的时候 却去偷东西? Or stolen something when you have the cash?
你有没有忧郁过? Have you ever been blue?
或者坐着不动的时候 却想着自己是在前行的列车上? Or thought your train moving while sitting still?
或许是我疯了 Maybe I was just crazy.
或许六十年代就是这样 Maybe it was the '60s.
又或许 我只是一个... Or maybe I was just a girl...
乱七八糟的女孩 interrupted.
把她绑起来 抽血祛毒 Put her in restraints. Withdraw blood for tox.
- 固定起来 - 给她注射5毫升安定 - Hold on here. - Give her five milligrams of Valium.
- 你弄好没? - 要不要做个全血球统计? - You got your end? - Want to do a C.B.C.?
把她头翻过去 以免呛到 Turn her head so she doesn't aspirate.
我认为是 阿司匹林碎片和伏特加酒 Aspirin fragments and vodka, I think.
别告诉我你的想法 拿到实验室去 Don't tell me what you think. Take it to the lab.
你们该检查下我的手 我手没有骨头 You should check my hand. There's no bones in it.
好像是个锁腕狂 Looks like a wrist banger.
所以你就这么做吗? Is that why you did this?
还有其他原因 And other things.
他父母正赶过来 Her parents are on the way.
有时候 对我来说... Sometimes it's hard...
呆在一个地方不动 很难 for me to stay in one place.
Susanna啊... Susanna...
如果你的手没有骨头... if you had no bones in your hand...
你怎么拿起阿司匹林的? how did you pick up the aspirin?
我妈妈在干吗? What is my mother doing?
先回答我的问题 好吗? Would you answer my question, please?
如果你的手没有骨头 那你是怎么拿起阿司匹林的? How did you pick up the aspirin if you had no bones in your hand?
那时候 又有骨头了 By then, they had come back.
我明白了 I see.
不 你不明白 No, you don't.
呃... Well...
那就满足下我 indulge me, then.
跟我解释一下 Explain it to me.
解释什么? Explain what?
跟医生解释 物理定律... Explain to a doctor that the laws of physics...
可以废除了? can be suspended?
说 上升的东西可能不会再降下来? That what goes up may not come down?
解释说... Explain...
时间... that time...
可以前进 也可以倒退... can move backwards and forwards...
一会变成将来 一会又变回来... and now to then and back again...
而你却无法控制? and you can't control it?
为什么你控制不了? Why can't you control it?
什么? What?
为什么你不能控制时间? Why can't you control time?
Sam 嘘! Sam, shh!
你去哪了? 大家都来了 过来 Where were you? Everyone is here. Come on.
- Mary 还记得Susanna吗 - 嗯 记得 - Mary, you remember Susanna. - Yes, I do.
你怎么穿成这样? So this is what you're wearing?
我不知道开始这么早 不然我肯定换了 I didn't know it was so early. I would have changed.
嘿 大家好 看谁来了 Hey, everybody. Look who's here.
- 生日快乐 爸爸 - 谢谢 宝贝 - Happy birthday, Dad. - Thanks, sweetie.
抱歉 我要去跟她打招呼 I'm sorry. I want to say hi to her.
宝贝 帮我拿着好吗? Sweetie, would you hold this for me?
我要去跟Susanna打招呼 I want to say hi to Susanna.
借过一下 Susanna! Excuse me. Susanna!
Susanna啊! Susanna!
Gilcrest教授的妻子 Professor Gilcrest's wife.
嗨 我是Barbara Gilcrest 还记得我吗? Hi. Barbara Gilcrest. Do you remember me?
- 我是Bonnie的妈妈 - 记得 - I'm Bonnie's mom. - Yeah.
你皮肤真好 Your skin is so beautiful.
Bonnie上过你们的小班 是吧? Bonnie was in your Lit class, wasn't she?
是的 她怎样了? Yeah. How is she doing?
她刚被Radcliffe录取 She just go accepted to Radcliffe.
太不可思议了 What a conundrum.
我是Wellesley毕业的 但是... I'm a Wellesley girl, myself, but...
我觉得年轻女孩该有自己的决断 你觉得呢? I think young women should make up their own mind, don't you think so?
你喝醉了吗? Are you stoned?
你抽大麻吗? Do you smoke pot?
用麻药吗? Take LSD?
没吸过毒吧? No drugs?
现在感觉如何? How do you feel right now?
我... I...
不知道 don't know.
我不知道自己的感觉 I don't know what I'm feeling.
你需要休息 You need a rest.
嗯 我会回家 休息一下 Well, I'll go home, take a nap.
你得去一个 能真正得到休息的地方 You need to go somewhere where you can get a genuine rest.
你非常幸运 And you're very lucky.
为你这类人准备的 世界上最好的地方... The best place in the world for someone like you...
就在距这里 不到半小时车程的地方 is less than a half an hour from here.
你不是说Claymoore吧 You don't mean Claymoore.
Susanna 四天前... Susanna. Four days ago...
你喝了一瓶伏特加 吃了一瓶安眠药 you chased a bottle of aspirin with a bottle of vodka.
我头疼 I had a headache.
Susanna啊 Susanna.
你父亲是我的朋友 Your father is a friend of mine.
也是我的同僚 He's a colleague.
他让我来看你 尽管我已经不干这一行了 He asked me to see you, even though I don't do this anymore.
你在伤害周围的人 You're hurting everyone around you.
现在... Now...
Claymore是最佳之地 Claymore is a topnotch place.
很多人都去那里 A lot of people go there.
甚至有 Even writers.
和你一样的作家 Like you.
Milford 1240号需要出租车 Yes, I'd like a cab at 1240 Milford, please.
我妈妈在这儿 My mother's here.
这样做才不会太伤感情 It'll be less emotional if we do it this way.
你父母和我讨论过了 Your parents and I have talked about it.
路上别停 Now, make sure no stops.
Susanna啊 Susanna.
Susanna 你在么? Susanna, are you there?
嘿 我想再见见你 Hey. I want to see you again.
- 事情都过去了 好吗? - 今晚来我办公室吧 - It was a one-time thing, okay? - Just come to my office tonight.
宝贝 你在哪呢? 我们准备拆礼物了 Sweetie, where are you? We're opening the presents.
告诉他们你要去朋友那里 拜托 Tell them you're going to a friend's. Please.
你想让我先告诉谁? Who do you want me to tell first?
我父母 学部主席 还是你妻子? My parents, the department chairman or your wife?
- Susanna Susanna... - 不 不行 - Susanna Susanna... - No, no.
你做了什么? What did you do?
什么? Excuse me?
呃 你看起来很正常 Well, you look normal.
我很难过 I'm sad.
每个人都会难过呢 Well, everyone's sad.
我看到了些东西 I see things.
你是说幻觉么? You mean like tripping?
有点像 Kind of.
那他们可以把约翰·列侬(英国伟大摇滚歌手)抛开了 哈? Then they should put John Lennon away, huh?
我可不是约翰·列侬 I'm not John Lennon.
别太喜欢这儿了 Don't get too comfortable.
不是该我的父母... Shouldn't my parents...
你要自己签 Kaysen小姐 You have to sign them, Miss Kaysen.
你超过18岁了 这是你的决定 You're over 18. This is your decision.
我没试过要自杀啊 I didn't try to kill myself.
那是你要跟治疗师说的事 亲爱的 不需要在这里说 That's the kind of thing you talk about in therapy, honey. Not here.
Kaysen小姐 Miss Kaysen.
你很优秀 你是Springbrook唯一的高年级学生... You have the distinction of being the only senior at Springbrook...
但却没继续上大学 not going on to college.
我可以问下你的计划吗? May I ask what you plan to do?
我计划搞写作 I plan to write.
但你怎么计划的呢? But what to you plan to do?
听着 我没事不会去烧个胸罩... Look, I'm not going to burn my bra...
磕点药 或者去华盛顿游行啥的 or drop acid or go march on Washington.
我只是不想像母亲那样等死而已 I just don't want to end up like my mother.
今天的女人们选择比以前多多了 Women today have more choices than that.
没有 他们没有 No, they don't.
还有这里 And here.
你忘了一个地方 亲爱的 这里 You forgot one, dear. Here.
代表Wcik医师和我自己... Speaking for Dr. Wick and myself...
欢迎你来到Claymoore Susanna welcome to Claymoore, Susanna.
这是女院部 被称为南部之钟 This is the women's ward, also known as South Bell.
你会呆在这里 这也是我工作的地方 This is where you'll be staying, and this is where I work.
好了 这是二楼 All right, this is the second floor.
你得跟紧我 因为这里很容易迷路 I need you to stay close to me because it's easy to get lost here.
这是我们的病房 This is our ward.
好吧 我们从这个房间开始 All right. Let's start with this room.
这是文艺室 This is the art room.
Poly 你在这干嘛? Polly. What are you doing in here?
我今天突然很有乐感 我能... I feel very musical today. Can I just...
今天不行 亲爱的 Not today, honey.
那是Polly 来吧 That's Polly. Come on.
Margie啊 Margie.
- Polly一个人跑到文艺室了 - 抱歉 Val - Polly was in the art room by herself. - I'm sorry, Val.
好的 All right.
啊 这是起居室 Ah, the living room.
大家都不喜欢 Everyone hates it.
这些是电话 And these are the phones.
你要打电话的话 就拿起来... You need to make a call, pick up the handle...
通知护士 她会帮你接通 tell the nurse, she'll connect you.
这是护士站 不需要说明了 This is the nurses' station, which is self-explanatory.
这是电视间 大家都喜欢在这闲逛 And this is the TV room where everyone hangs out.
他妈的 我要我的衣服 I want my fucking clothes.
那你得先吃东西 好吗? Then you'll have to eat something, won't you?
这是登记处... This is where you check-in...
如果你想下去或者做什么 就在这登记 if you want walk on the grounds or something.
# 哦 老天爷 捡了一笔钱 # # Oh, lordy, pick a bale of hay #
# 跳来又跳去 捡了一笔钱 转呀转圈圈 # # Gotta jump down, spin around Pick a bale of cotton #
# 跳来又跳去 捡了一笔钱 转呀转圈圈 # # Jump down, spin around Pick a bale of hay #
她以为那样就能烦到我 现在... She thinks that bothers me. Right now...
你是"R"级 就是说 你只能再院区活动 you're an "R," which means you're restricted to the ward.
大概一个月后 你就能升级到二对一群了... But in about a month, you'll probably move up to two-to-ones...
意思是由2个护士照顾所有人 which is two nurses to every patient.
我不会在这里久呆的 我只是来静养一下 I'm not going to be here that long. I'm just here for a rest.
没关系 每个人都可以免费旅行 It's all right. Everybody gets the same tour free of charge.
Georgina 这是Susanna 你的新室友 Georgina, this is Susanna, your new roommate.
- 哦 很好 嗨 - 嗨 - Oh, great. Hi. - Hi.
Susanna 你很幸运 Georgina是个很棒的室友 Susanna, you're very lucky. Georgina's an excellent roommate.
谢谢 Valerie Why, thank you, Valerie.
不客气 You're welcome.
Susanna 能否失陪一下? 我有点事要处理 Susanna, will you excuse me? I have some business I have to attend to.
Georgina 半小时后你带Susanna去下面的餐厅 好吗? Georgina, will you take Susanna down to the dining room in a half hour?
保证 Sure.
行就是行 Georgina Yes means yes, Georgina.
我知道 I know.
好帅的盒子啊 Groovy box.
- 那个 - 哦 - That. - Oh.
对 这是法国货 Yeah, they're French.
法国人都抽这个 The French Resistance smoked them, I think.
你读过这个吗? You ever read this?
没有 但电影我看过好多次了 No. I saw the movie a bunch of times, though.
电影是根据第一部小说改编的 The movie's actually based on the first book.
我也读过那个 但是原著没有红宝石大盗 I read that one too, but there were no ruby slippers in it originally.
他们后来加的 这本是后来推出的 They added that. This one takes place afterwards.
这里面写桃乐茜的部分不多 Dorothy doesn't really have such a big part in this one.
猪头三 Fucking pig.
别碰我! Get off me!
嘿 Dais 让别人进你房间了吗? Hey, Dais. Let anyone in your room yet?
嘿 女孩们! 嘿 性感妞 Hey, girls! Hey, sexy.
回家真好 It's good to be home.
- 嘿 Torch - 嘿 Lisa - Hey, Torch. - Hey, Lisa.
- 想我了吗? - 不是太想 - You miss me? - Not much.
把她带回自己房间 Gretta给她做个光身检查 Get her to her room. Gretta'll do the strip search.
- 和Georgie女在一块那女孩是谁? - 得了吧你 - Who's that with Georgie-girl? - Come on.
- Jamie去哪了? - 我搞不定 - Where's Jamie? - I can't deal with this.
- 别让我难做事 - Jamie在哪? - Don't give me a hard time. - Where's Jamie?
她在哪? Where is she?
放开我! 你他妈别碰我! Let go! Don't you fucking touch me!
你是谁? Who are you?
她叫Susanna 她是抽法国烟的 Her name is Susanna. She smokes French cigarettes.
为什么你的破东西在她床上? Why is all your shit on her bed?
- 为什么? Jamie去哪了? - 你在说什么啊? - Why? Where's Jamie? - What are you talking about?
你到底在做啥 Lisa? What the hell are you doing, Lisa?
别碰她 退后 你已经消失2周了 Back off her. Back off. You've been gone for two weeks.
早已物是人非了 退后 A lot of shit has gone down. Back off.
她怎么了? How'd she do it?
她怎么了 Val? How'd she do it, Valerie?
别碰我! Get the fuck off me!
你们这些软蛋 你们都是该死的软蛋! 你们都是牺牲品! You weak people. You're all weak fucking people! You're victims!
你们都他妈有病! You people are fucking sick!
- 什么? - 不要 Val 不要 求你! - What? - No, Val, please. Please!
捉住她的腿! Get her legs!
不要! Please!
- 操 滚开! - 捉紧她的双脚! - Fuck, no! - Get her feet!
- 捉紧了! - 滚开! 不要 不要! - I got her! - Get off! No, no!
来人啊! Help!
又要处理刺头了 We have got to cut those nails again.
天呐 那癫子是谁? My God. What the hell was that?
她是Lisa That was Lisa.
Jamie是你以前的室友? And Jamie was your roommate?
Jamie是Lisa最好的朋友 Jamie was Lisa's best friend.
上周Lisa独自逃走 她为此很抑郁... She was sad last week 'cause Lisa ran away...
后来用排球网编成绳子 上吊自杀了 so she hung herself with a volleyball net.
主人 Master.
喔! 喔 真对不起 Oh! Oh, I'm sorry.
吃药啦! Meds!
Cynthia Crowley呢 Cynthia Crowley.
Susanna Kaysen呢 Susanna Kaysen.
我是McWilley夫人 这是你要吃的药 I am Mrs. McWilley, and these are for you.
- 吃了做什么? - 安眠 - What are they? - They'll help you sleep.
- 现在才10点半 我还不想... - 真墨迹 - It's 10:30. I'm not gonna... - For Christ's sake.
亲爱的 你可以明早和医生申诉 You can discuss it in the morning, dear, with your doctor.
现在 你必须服从安排 In the meantime, we'll just have to agree to disagree.
吃下去 这是水 Take them here. Have some water.
Polly Clark呢 Polly Clark.
你可以走了 You can go now.
Teresa McCullian呢 Teresa McCullian.
Daisy Randone呢 Daisy Randone.
年鉴总编 荣誉社团成员 Yearbook editor and member of the Honor Society.
录取院校 图兰大学 Heading off to Tulane University.
恭喜 Congratulations.
Andrea Jacobs同学... Andrea Jacobs...
法语社和荣誉社团主席 president of the French Club and Honor Society...
录取院校 莎拉 劳伦斯学院 and on her way to Sarah Lawrence.
Susanna Kaysen同学 Susanna Kaysen.
- 她在搞什么鬼? - 她的一贯作风 - What is she doing? - Some kind of a stunt.
Susanna Kaysen同学 Susanna Kaysen.
醒来啦 火星人 Wake up, freak.
查房 Checks.
Georgina啊 Georgina.
她们做这干嘛? Why do they do that?
查房而已 They're just doing checks.
过段时间就松多了 They'll space them out more after you've been here a while.
那个叫Polly的女孩 That girl. Polly.
她怎么满脸... How did she get all...
她十岁的时候... When she was ten...
她妈妈想把她的小狗狗送走... her mother told her that she had to give away her puppy...
因为狗狗引发了她的皮疹 'cause he was giving her a rash.
于是Polly... And so Polly went...
找到她老爸的汽油罐... and found her father's gas can...
把汽油泼到自己长疹子的部位 and she poured it all over where she was getting the rash.
然后... And then...
她点了一根火柴 she lit a match.
噢 天啊 Oh, my God.
你呢? 你为什么在这里? What about you? Why are you here?
幻想性谎言癖 Pseudologia fantastica.
那是什么? What's that?
满口没一句真话的变态 I'm a pathological liar.
- 这个秋天你有什么打算? - 你说啥? - What are your plans this fall? - What?
这个秋天你有啥打算? What are your plans this fall?
没想法 I don't have any.
我要去麻省理工学院修习民族植物学 I'm going to be an ethonobotanist.
已经批准了全额奖学金 Full scholarship to M.I.T.
我要加入克瑞须那教派(印度教分支 在西方家喻户晓) I'm gonna join the Krishnas.
颂歌就叫克瑞须那的教派? 真是挺有意思 Hare Krishna? That's interesting, actually.
开玩笑罢了 I was kidding.
你是Susanna吧? You're Susanna, right?
我是Andrea Jacobs的哥哥 Toby I'm Toby. Andrea Jacobs' brother.
我也在毕业典礼上 I was at graduation.
你... You're...
你睡着的样子很美 You're pretty when you sleep.
查房 Checks.
7点了 It's 7:00 o'clock.
我说 每个人 或多或少都会思考这个问题 I mean, everybody thinks about it at some point.
你会选择哪样死法? How would you do it?
不知道 I don't know.
我大概还没仔细想过 I guess I haven't really thought about it.
不过 一旦你想到这个问题... Once it's in your head, though...
你就变得... you become this...
怪诞 成了火星人 strange, new breed.
一个终日幻想自己死亡的活物 A life-form that loves to fantasize about its own demise.
说些不着边际的话 那就自杀吧 Make a stupid remark, kill yourself.
如果你喜欢这电影 你就是鲜活的 If you like the movie, you live.
- 错过这火车 那就自杀吧 - Susanna - You miss the train, kill yourself. - Susanna.
嗯? What?
我们不要再讨论这话题了 好吗? Let's not talk about this anymore, okay?
为啥? Why?
因为这... Because it's...
很愚蠢 stupid.
咋了? What?
你干什么呢? What are you doing?
搞毛? 就因为我不想自杀? 你就不爽? What? 'Cause I don't want to kill myself? That's not cool to you?
我才不想死 我只是随口说说 I don't want to die. I was just talking.
听着 Susanna 这世界本就一片狼藉 你明白么? Look, Susanna, the world is fucked up, okay?
世界如此不堪 只有来些傻逼呆子... It's so fucked up that if some draft zombie...
破坏我的生日聚会 我就会因此死去 pulls my birthday out of a barrel, I'm gonna die.
你啥时候生日? When's your birthday?
12月30 December 30.
我会为你祈祷的 I'll pray for you.
Susanna啊 Susanna,
查房 Checks.
你要这个? You asked for this?
这你都要看? Are you going to watch?
是的 Afraid so.
所以这里才有那么多女人都是"飞毛腿" That's why there's so many fuzzy-legged women around here.
有人看过你刮腿毛的样子么? Has anybody ever watched you shave your legs?
我和两个孩子共用浴室 你认为呢? I got two kids and one bathroom. What do you think?
我认为你应该锁好门 I think you should lock the door.
9月14 September 14.
中了 Bingo.
- 中了 中了 - 12月30 - Bingo, bingo. - December 30.
噢 天呐 Oh, my God.
选中了一个我认识的家伙 A guy I know was just drafted.
他叫什么? What's his name?
叫Toby Toby.
他死定了 He's dead now.
滚卡 Lisa! Get out, Lisa!
我没进你房间 Daisy 我站在这儿呢 I'm not in your room, Daisy. I'm right fucking here.
- 要我借你指甲油么? - 滚开! - Do you want some of my nail polish? - Get out!
- 你看起来好多了 Lisa - 谢谢 Margie - You're looking better, Lisa. - Thanks, Margie.
- 和未婚夫进展如何? - 你知道的 - How's the engagement going? - Well, you know.
我不知道 我那时可不在 No, I don't. I've been away.
Joe想在婚礼前... 要了我 Joe wants me to... before the wedding.
让他去死吧 用橡胶假人还差不多 Fuck his brains out. Use a rubber.
天 才不呢 Gosh, hell, no.
我能来一根么? Can I bum one?
随便 Go ahead.
那么 你还没和Melvin见第一次面吧? So, have you had your first Melvin yet?
那是谁? Who's that?
有个胖老婆的小鸡巴秃子 Bald guy with a little pecker and a fat wife.
强奸你心理的"主治医生" 小甜甜 Your "ther-rapist," sweet pea.
除非... Unless...
除非她们把你弄晕 unless they're giving you shocks.
或者 放你出去 当然这是不可能的 Or, God forbid, letting you out.
否则 你就得会见我们牛逼哄哄的基佬医生了 Then you get to see the great, wonderful Dr. Dyke.
她说的是Wick医生 She means Dr. Wick.
我去过他办公室 但还没见过他 I've been in his office, but I haven't met him yet.
他就是她 Wick医生是个女的 He's a she. Dr. Wick's a girl.
说得好 M.G. Wick就是个娘儿们 That's right, M.G. Wick's a chick.
- Lisa! - 所以外号基佬医生 - Lisa! - Hence the nickname.
嘿 Lil 啥时候查我的房啊? Hey, Lil. When the fuck is my checkup?
现在 就是现在 Lisa 你说过你会呆在房里 Now, it's now, Lisa. You said you'd be in your room.
哈 戴个护士帽 就整天走来走去查房 Can't let you sit too long without popping the hood, huh.
混蛋 Asshole.
Susanna 半小时后Melvin要见你 我带你过去 Susanna, you have Melvin in half an hour. I'll take you there.
对不起 I'm sorry.
为什么用过去时? Why are you using the past tense?
你指什么? What do you mean?
是说 上帝只是在过去 设定了他的今日... Well, he was only drafted today...
所以 他可能还活着 so chances are he's not dead yet.
可能 消失几个月... Probably has several months...
就会宣布回归 before he even reports.
他是个好人 真的好人 He was just a nice guy, that's all.
他的死让我感到很悲伤 And it made me feel bad.
大多时间 你都在悲伤 You've been feeling bad in general.
对吗? 一直以来 你都很忧郁 Right? You've been feeling depressed.
我可没多少快乐时光 Melvin I haven't exactly been a ball of joy, Melvin.
我能理解 你上周的自杀行为 I understand you tried to kill yourself last week.
想对此说些什么吗? Anything you want to tell me about that?
我当时头痛 I had a headache.
那我就假设 你只是吃了适量的阿司匹林来止头痛咯 So I assume you took the recommended aspirin dosage for a headache.
我没有想要杀死自己 I didn't try to kill myself.
- 那你是想做什么? - 我只是想 暂停这混乱的世界 - What were you trying to do? - I was trying to make the shit stop.
跳跃的时间 抑郁的心情... The time jumps, the depression...
头痛 还是手的毛病? the headaches, the thing with your hand?
所有这些 All of the above.
我明白了 I see.
你在看什么? 你很迷惑么? What is it? Are you puzzled about something?
是 大概是吧 Melvin Yeah. I guess I am, Melvin.
我大概在疑惑 为什么我会在精神病院 I guess I'm puzzled as to why it is I have to be in a mental institution.
- 是你自己 把自己送了进来 - 是我父母送我进来的 - You put yourself here. - My parents put me here.
不 不是他们 No, they didn't.
这里每一个人都他妈的是疯子! Everyone here's fucking crazy!
你想回家 You want to go home.
家也不清净 Same problem.
M.G. 看着我 M.G., look at me.
陪我玩玩嘛 Play with me.
别不高兴 开心点啦 Don't be sad, don't be sad.
- Lisa - 嗯 - Lisa. - Yeah.
谢谢 Thank you.
- 哦 这些是什么? - 多库酯钠 就是轻泻药 - Oh. What are these? - Colace. It's just a laxative.
我用不着 I don't need them.
你想没事找事儿? Are we going to have a problem?
我检查下? 谢谢 May I see? Thank you.
投降吧 Surrender.
你想没事找事儿? Are we going to have a problem?
没 没事儿 No. No problem.
Susanna 你的电话 1号位 Susanna. Phone call, booth one.
喂? Hello?
等等 Hold on.
- 喂? - Susanna? - Hello? - Susanna?
- 嗨 妈 - 嗨 亲爱的 你爸也在 - Hi, Mom. - Hi, honey. Your father's on too.
他刚开完储备金听证会 He just got back from reserve hearings.
回来的时候还在杜勒斯机场耽搁了一会儿 His plane got stuck at Dulles.
- 你怎么样了 亲爱的? - 我很好 爸 - How're you doing, honey? - I'm fine, Dad.
- 你知道 亲爱的... - 噢 天啊! - You know, sweetheart... - Oh, God!
Valerie 求求你 Valerie, please.
就算不给泻药 来点轻泻药总行吧? If you can't give me any Ex-Lax, can I please have some Colace, please?
没 不能再给你轻泻药了 No. No more laxatives.
- Margie? - 我可以给她点李子汁 - Margie? - I can get her some prune juice.
李子汁! Prune juice!
太可恶了 This is outrageous.
你奶奶在好奇 你是否交了新朋友 然后我说... She was wondering whether you'd made new friends, and I said...
"不 妈 这可不是温尼卡夏令营 " "No, Mom. This isn't Camp Winnetka. "
- Daisy? - 滚开 - Daisy? - Fuck off.
我有你要的东西 I have something you want.
进来 Come in.
- 你都打包好了 - 一个月后我就能出去了 - You're all packed up. - I'm leaving in a month.
我爸给我买了公寓 My dad got me an apartment.
- 真的? 在哪儿? 是哪种... - 在机场附近 - Really? Where? What kind of... - It's near the airport.
一个卧室 两个浴室 附带熟鸡 一切都为我安排好了 One bedroom, two baths, eat-in chicken. He fixed it up real nice for me.
- 你是说"附带厨房"吧 - 是这意思 混蛋 - You mean "eat-in kitchen." - That's what I said, asshole.
你有什么是我想要的? So what do you have that I want?
- 放在床上 然后出去 - 把你的也放床上 - Put it on the bed and get out. - Put yours on the bed.
噢 天 出去! 滚出去! Oh, Jesus. Get out! Get out!
别啊 Daisy 别欺负人家新来的 Come on, Daisy. Don't take advantage just because she's new.
- 拿点安定来 - 滚你丫的... - Pony up some Valium. - Get the fuck out...
不然我就叫Valerie来! Valerie! or I'm calling Valerie! Valerie!
好啊 你叫吧 为什么... 不叫Valerie 叫啊? Yeah, yeah. Why don't you... why don't you call Valerie?
叫她给你点轻泻药 Let's call Valerie and ask her for some Colace
给点Susie Q手中的那玩意儿 just like Susie Q's got in her fucking hand.
这儿怎么这么臭? Why does it stink in here?
- 我不吃安定 - 我知道 Daisy 你不吃 - I don't take Valium. - I know, Daisy. That's the point.
你不吃安定 医生给你开了 但你没吃 You don't take them. They give them to you, and you don't take them.
你是要吃那劳什子鸡 还是... 还是... Are you going to eat that or... or...
查房 嘿 有人看你来了 Daisy Checks. Hey, you've got visitors, Daisy.
给我点轻泻药 I want some fucking Colace.
明天和Melvin说去吧 Talk to Melvin tomorrow.
知道我怎么看么? 我看啊 你是很想拉屎吧 Daisy You know what I think? I think you want to poop, Daisy.
我知道 你可是便秘了好久 I think it's been days.
- 没事儿 我不在意 - 我在意! 我很在意! - It's okay. I don't care. - I do! I do care!
老爹给你买了个私人寓所 别人进不去 So Daddy buys you a private and no one gets in.
你从不去餐厅吃东西 除非Valerie逼你... You never leave except for when Valerie makes you go to the cafeteria...
去了也是啥都不吃 where you never eat.
我一直以为 你和变态瘦身狂Janet是同类... You're a laxative junkie, so...
都是吃泻药上瘾的垃圾 但你却终日龟缩在这里吃鸡 I always thought you were like Janet but then here you are with this chicken.
这怎么解释呢 哈? So what's with that, huh?
我爸开了家熟食店 混蛋 还有烤肉店 My dad owns a deli, asshole, with a rotisserie.
我只喜欢吃我爸做的鸡 别的我都想吐 I like my dad's chicken, and when I eat something else, I puke.
为什么要在这里吃? 为什么不喜欢去自助餐厅? But why do you eat it here? Why don't you like to go to the cafeteria?
一个人拉屎 还是任由Valerie看着你拉屎? Which do you like better?
要是你 你会选哪样? Taking a dump alone or with Valerie watching?
一个人 Alone.
每个人都喜欢一个人拉屎 Everyone likes to be alone when it comes out.
我喜欢一个人吃东西 I like to be alone when it goes in.
对我来说 去自助餐厅 就好像和20个女生一起拉屎 To me, the cafeteria is like being with 20 girls all at once taking a dump.
你真能吹 Daisy That is fucked up, Daisy.
走 Come on.
服了你们了 混蛋! All right, assholes!
好吧 给你们 Fine. Here.
Lisa 别! 求你了 别! No. Lisa, don't! No, please!
操你祖宗的 Dios fucking mio.
老爹就是这么发现她吃鸡的吧 I guess that's how Daddy knows she's eating.
等我攒够五只 Valerie就会叫我扔掉 When I get five, Valerie makes me throw them away.
鬼画符 真是鬼画符 Scribble, scribble, scribble.
- 有没有写我啊? - 别这样! - Written anything about me yet? - Don't do that!
好的 Okay.
Lisa啊? Lisa?
Daisy真的要出去了么? Is Daisy really getting out?
是啊 Yeah.
她花了一大笔钱 She coughed up a big one.
这怎么... 我是说 她简直不可理喻 How can... I mean, she's insane.
这就是所谓的心理行业 That's what "ther-rape-me" is all about.
这就是所有心理医生的墙上 都挂着弗洛伊德画像的原因 That's why fucking Freud's picture is on every shrink's wall.
他开创了这行业 你敞开心胸 坦白秘密 才能得到救赎 He created an industry. You lie down, you confess your secrets, you're saved.
你坦白的越多 才能获得更多的自由 The more you confess, the more they think about setting you free.
假若你没有秘密呢? But what if you don't have a secret?
那就和我一样 被判无期徒刑 Then you're a lifer, like me.
我在给她换尿布... I was changing her diaper...
转身去拿爽身粉... and I turned to get the powder...
当我转身时 她就从床上滚了下来 and while my back was turned, she rolled off the bed.
从床上滚下来 摔断了腿 She rolled off the bed and broke her leg.
医生把她固定在床板上 The doctor put her in a body cast, but he also strapped her down.
- 这没一点关系... - 你从未跟我提起过 - This has nothing to do... - You never told me this.
Carl当时计划去圣莫尼卡... Carl had been planning this trip to Santa Monica...
他已经和当地的蓝德公司签了约 我们只好带上她 but he had a commitment with RAND, so we took her with us.
把她绑在木板上 放在车后座 旅行4千英里 On the back seat, strapped to this board, 4,000 miles.
如果你愿意 Kaysen夫人 我们可以在外面... If you like, Mrs. Kaysen, we can discuss this further...
详谈此事... on the way out...
我女儿到底还要在这呆多久? Just how long is my daughter going to be here?
恕我直言 Kaysen先生... With all due respect, Mr. Kaysen...
精神病学和经济学是两码事 psychiatry and economics are different.
Susanna要在这呆多久 The length of Susanna's stay isn't fixed.
取决于她治疗的效果 It depends on her response to treatment.
为什么? 就因为有点抑郁? 这都快圣诞了 For what? Depression? It's almost Christmas.
我们要怎么跟回家问候她的人解释呢? What are we supposed to say to the people back home who care about her?
你瞧瞧 Melvin 我父母少了我... You see, Melvin, what's going on here...
可就不好开鸡尾酒圣诞派对了 is my parents are having a little holiday cocktail Christmas party crisis.
- Susanna - 啥? - Susanna. - What?
你在电话上说到的边界人格到底怎么回事? What is this borderline business you mentioned on the phone?
听着... Look...
我觉得这对Susanna没用 I don't think that's useful to Susanna.
- 我是说 不是... - 什么"边界人格"? - I mean, not... - What "borderline business"?
- 你瞧 人脑... - 啥边界? - You see, the mind... - Borderline what?
什么和什么的边界? Borderline between what and what?
Melvin? Melvin?
是一种心理疾病 Susanna... It's a condition, Susanna...
叫做边缘型人格障碍 and it's called Borderline Personality Disorder.
噢 天呐 Oh, God.
这不稀奇 尤其对年轻女性来说 It's not uncommon, especially among young women.
什么原因引起的? What causes it?
我们还不确定 We're really not sure.
- 是不是遗传的? - 喔 天! - Is it genetic? - Oh, Christ!
父母患有边界人格疾病的孩子... It is five times more common...
发病几率比普通孩子... among those with a borderline...
高出5倍 parent.
我受不了 I can't do this.
对不起 我不能... 我承受不了 I'm sorry. I can't... I can't do this.
"用剃须刀痛 河流湿气重... "Razors pain you, rivers are damp...
说你风凉话 嗑药都绞痛... acid stains you, drugs cause cramp...
枪支不合法 绞刑让你... guns aren't lawful, nooses give...
汽油好难闻 你也照样活" gas smells awful, you might as well live."
Gin Gin.
嘿 Hey.
- 混蛋 - 死胖子 - Asshole. - Fatso.
- 嘿 Susanna - 嘿 - Hey, Susanna. - Hey.
John 叫我出租车 John. Call me a cab.
好 你是辆出租车 Okay, you're a cab.
Lisa说你进了Daisy的房间... Lisa said you got into Daisy's room...
里面满是鸡 and it was full of chickens.
Susanna 你的电话 Susanna, you have a phone call.
喂? Hello?
你的诊断结果是什么? So what's your "diag-nonsense"?
- 你是? - 医生对老爸老妈说了啥? - Who is this? - What'd he say to Mom and Pop?
我有边缘型人格障碍 I have a borderline personality.
- 小毛病而已 还有没? - 他没说 - That's nothing. What else? - He didn't want to say.
他认为说了会影响我的康复 He thought it would affect my recovery.
听好 今晚别吃药 Listen, tongue your meds tonight.
1点查房之后 Gretta通常都会出去抽烟 After 1:00 checks, Gretta always goes out for a smoke.
看看反视镜 如果她们都不在 你就来Hector的房间 Check the mirrors, and if they're clear, you go down to Hector's closet.
就在文艺室旁边 门会开着 It's near the art room, and it will be open.
Torch! Torch!
来 Come on.
Susanna Susanna Susanna. Susanna.
Lisa就是这么逃出去的 This is how Lisa gets out when she escapes.
在这儿有人管着我们 没啥乐子 We're under administration so, no good here.
所幸这地方仍是按常规建造的 Good thing this place works on a sliding scale.
我们得跟这个会开锁的垃圾一起混 We get to mingle with the lock-picking trash.
Susanna 该你了 Susanna, you're up.
不啦... 我这辈子就玩过一次 No... no... no. I've only done this once in my life.
来啦 Come on.
好! All right!
他们建这里的时候 加入了隧道... When they built this place, they put the tunnels in...
天冷的时候 这些无赖就不用出门取乐了 so the loons didn't have to go anywhere in the cold.
我一定是漏看了入院手册 I must have missed that in the brochure.
嘿 开门 Hey, open this door.
你丫的干啥呢? What the fuck are you doing?
哇 Wick医生的办公室 Wow. Dr. Wick's office.
好吧 Georgina Tuskin All right. Georgina Tuskin.
Susanna Kaysen的 Susanna Kaysen.
Polly Clark的 Polly Clark.
Cynthia Crowley的 Cynthia Crowley.
- 恭喜 - 谢谢 - Congratulations. - Thank you.
Janet Webber的 Janet Webber.
Lisa Rowe的 Lisa Rowe.
精神抑郁 高智商 自我否定 焦虑 反抗 确诊为边缘型人格障碍
操你老母 Melvin Fuck you, Melvin.
想不想看我的? Want to see mine?
我们换着看 Let me see yours.
"情绪起伏剧烈 "Highs and lows increasingly severe.
和其他病人保持距离 Controlling relationships with patients.
药物反应不佳 No appreciable response to meds.
病情无缓解" No remission observed."
那是你逃走前的批语 That was before you ran away.
我们多稀有啊 都跟男人一样能干 We are very rare, and we are mostly men.
Lisa认为自己牛逼 因为她不爱社交 Lisa thinks she's hot shit because she's a sociopath.
- 我不爱社交 - 不 你是同性恋 - I'm a sociopath. - No, you're a dyke.
"边缘型人格障碍 "Borderline Personality Disorder.
自我形象和人际关系薄弱 情绪不稳定 An instability of self-image, relationships and mood.
无确定目标... Uncertainty about goals...
冲动任性 自我伤害... impulsive in activities that are self-damaging...
比如草率性交" such as casual sex."
- 我喜欢 - "通常反对社会现状... - I like that. - "Social contrariness...
持悲观厌世情绪" and a generally pessimistic attitude are often observed."
- 这就是我 - 每个人都这样 - That's me. - That's everybody.
我是说 怎样才不是草率性交? I mean, what kind of sex isn't casual?
他们是说滥交 They mean promiscuous.
我不滥交 I'm not promiscuous.
我真的不滥交 I'm not.
天 Jesus.
看看Janet Look at Janet.
没事儿 No, it's all right.
大雪天带我们去吃冰激凌... You know, taking us for ice creams in a blizzard...
到底谁才是精神病 makes you wonder who the real whack jobs are.
我觉得这挺好 I think it's kind of nice.
明天Daisy就要走了 今天来开心一下是应该的 I think it's nice to do something nice on Daisy's last day.
操 Fuck.
- 我要薄荷棒棒糖 - 我也要 能给我一根薄荷棒棒糖么? - I'm going to have peppermint stick. - Me too. Can I have peppermint stick?
- 当然 - 错了 那只是薄荷 - Sure. - No, it's just called a peppermint.
- 薄荷鸡巴! - 说真的 - Peppermint dick! - Honestly.
薄荷阴蒂! Peppermint clit!
- 我们只要4个甜筒 - 4个甜筒 - We're just gonna have four cones. - Four cones.
- Susanna 你要点什么? - 我不用 - Susanna, do you want anything? - I'm fine.
- Ronny - 啊? - Ronny. - Yes?
- 有热的软糖么? - 有 - You got any hot fudge? - Yes.
是么? 我能来个香草圣代么... Yeah? Can I have a vanilla sundae with hot fudge...
加点热的软糖和糖屑? and sprinkles?
彩糖 不要巧克力 Rainbow, not chocolate.
还要... And...
生奶油... whipped cream...
樱桃... cherries...
和... and...
坚果?(nuts也指卵蛋) Nuts?
女士们 都坐下来吧 Let's have a seat, ladies.
Melvin认为我应该住在小客栈 Melvin thought that I should live in a halfway house.
但是我父亲觉得我理应住公寓 But my father knew that I deserved my own apartment.
所以他给我置办好了最漂亮的公寓 So he got me the prettiest apartment.
不出门就能吃到鸡... It has an eat-in chicken...
和漂亮的全套柳条家具... and all this beautiful wicker furniture and...
真是太美妙了 柳条编的蝴蝶 Which is fantastic. Wicker butterflies.
我最喜欢的东西... My very favorite part...
就和电话簿上一摸一样 is like in the phone book.
房子外边就写着: There's a sign right outside that says:
"这里就是你的家园" "If you lived here you'd be home now."
还记得我吗? 你一定记得 Do you remember me? You must remember me.
- 是的 Gilcrest夫人 嗨 - Susanna 你没事吧? - Yes. Mrs. Gilcrest, hi. - Susanna, are you okay?
我很好 I'm fine.
- 嘿 Bonnie Radcliffe学院怎么样? - 我在Wellesley学院 我很喜欢 - Hey, Bonnie. How's Radcliffe? - Wellesley. I'm enjoying it.
那里艺术气息浓厚 今夏我要去索邦神学院 It's strong in art. I'm going to the Sorbonne this summer.
- 太棒了 - 你清楚 我了解你的一切 - That's great. - You know, I know all about you.
我希望他们关你一辈子 And I hope they put you away forever.
- 这就是教授的老婆? - 什么教授? - Is this the professor's wife? - What professor?
你跟谁都说了 You told everybody.
- 夫人 退开点 - 我没在和你说话吧? - Lady, back off. - Was I talking to you?
没 你是在对我吐唾沫 最好他妈的滚远点 No, you were spitting on me, so mellow fucking out.
- 别对我指指点点 - 她给你老公舔肛 - Don't you tell me what to do. - She gave your husband a rim job.
真他妈爽的事情! Big fucking deal!
我肯定他可是求着要的 我还听说他的家伙跟铅笔似的 I'm sure he was begging for it, and I heard it was like a pencil anyway.
你怎么敢这样? How dare you?
给你提点醒 知道么? 别他妈的用手指指着疯子! Some advice, okay? Don't point your fucking finger at crazy people!
放开我 Let go of me.
- 妈 - 别拿甜筒在我眼前晃悠 混蛋! - Mother. - Get that out of my face, asshole!
放手! 快 Let go! Now.
住手! Stop it!
你上了那女人老公? You shared a man with that woman?
- 享受这外面的新鲜空气么 Lisa? - 嗯 Val 谢谢 - Did you enjoy the fresh air, Lisa? - Yeah, I did, Val. Thanks.
好好享受吧 以后你就再没机会出病房了 Good. Because it's the last time you're leaving the ward.
这警告是不是还有下次啊? Is that a dare or a double dare?
好的 举起你们的手臂 Okay. Raise your arms.
很好 我们要做一棵树 Very good. We're going to be trees.
把手臂当成树枝 感受其中的力量... Feel the strength in your arms as the branches...
并尽力向空中伸展 and reach those branches up to the sky.
来啊 Susanna 举起来 很好 Come on, Susanna. Reach. Very good.
举起来 Lisa 很好 Up. Lisa, all right.
举起你们的手臂 女孩儿们 举起来 举高点 Reach your arms, girls. Reach. Really lift.
感受下臀部的伸展 Feel the stretch through the hip.
很好 把手臂当成树枝 Very good. Let your arms be branches.
感受这些树枝中的力量 Feel the strength of those branches.
伸展 一直伸展到空中 Reach. Reach all the way up into the sky.
很好 Very good.
体会一下轻风拂过树叶的感觉 你的手就是树叶 Let the wind blow the leaves, and let your fingers be the leaves.
很好 M.G. Good, M.G.
很好 体会一下风的感觉 好 Lisa 650 Very good. Feel the wind. Good. Good, Lisa.
很好 Very good.
上举 上举 很好 姑娘们 Just lift up. Lift up. Very good, girls.
现在体会一下你的脚 把你的脚想象成树根 Now feel your feet. Feel your feet be rooted.
膝盖弯曲 很好 Go down into a plie. Very good.
好 姑娘们 Polly 很好 Good, girls. Polly, very good.
好 伸展 风力增强了 风向向这儿 Okay. Now stretch it. The wind's blowing really hard this way. This way.
- 快要把你吹倒了 - 这不公平! - It's blowing you over. - That is not fair!
74磅是理想体重! Seventy-four is the perfect weight!
好运 疯婊子 Good luck, crazy bitch.
Janet 坐在地板上像什么树啊? Now what kind of tree can you be, Janet, down there on the floor?
我是他妈的灌木 行吗? I'm a fucking shrub, all right?
我不能反击 你要适应这点 这很清楚 I cannot fight back. You're used to it. It's so clear.
小马丁·路德·金今晚在田纳西州孟菲斯被杀 Martin Luther King, Jr. was killed tonight in Memphis, Tennessee.
当他独自站在旅馆阳台上时 面部中弹 He was shot in the face as he stood alone on the balcony of his hotel room.
前一晚他还说 Last night, he said this:
我现在不知道将来会发生什么 I don't know what will happen now.
我们未来的日子会很困难 We've got some difficult days ahead.
但现在对我来说无关紧要了... But it really doesn't matter with me now...
因为我已经站到山顶上了 because I've been to the mountaintop.
我不在乎 And I don't mind.
他们还叫你什么? What are your other chores like?
嗯 他们叫我妈 妈妈 妈咪还有... Well, they call me mom and mama and mommy and...
Susanna 有人来看你 Susanna, you have a visitor.
你... 你来这儿干嘛? Well, how... what are you doing here?
嗨 Hi.
我下周坐船出国 I ship out next week.
给 Here.
查房 Checks.
对不起 Sorry.
没事儿 我们继续 十分钟后他们才会再来 No. It's okay. We have ten minutes till they come back.
嘿 Torch Hey, Torch
你在干嘛? What you doing?
没干嘛 Nothing.
那 干嘛不去你自己房间闲着 嗯? Well, why don't you go to your room and do nothing, huh?
查房 Checks.
- 嘿 Margie - 嘿 Lisa - Hey, Margie. - Hey, Lisa.
- 你在干嘛呢? - 查房 - What you doing? - Checks.
- Joe怎么样了? - 他很好 - How's Joe? - He's fine.
嗯 Yeah.
Lisa 我要去查房 Lisa, I have to do my checks.
嗯 跟我处五分钟就是玩忽职守了? Yeah, and taking five minutes from me would be a dereliction of duty?
我的动脉被刺破了怎么办? What would you do if I had punctured artery?
你也照样去查房 不管我的伤势? You'd just go about your rounds, ignoring my wounds?
- Lisa 别这样 - 别哪样? 你他妈的猪头 看着 - Lisa, stop it. - Stop what? You fucking pig. Look at this.
- 走啊 - 别闹了 - Go ahead, go ahead. - That's enough.
再走一步 我就扎破我的主动脉 走啊 Take one fucking step, and I'll jam this in my aorta. Go ahead.
- 不要这样了 - Lisa 主动脉在胸部 - Stop it. - Lisa, your aorta is in your chest.
多谢你告诉我 Good to know.
- 我会记录下来 - 好的 - I'll make a note of that. - Good.
Susanna 你有权外出 何不出去走走? Susanna, you have grounds privileges. Why don't you take a walk?
去喝杯咖啡 Go get a cup of coffee.
我们要离开这儿 We should get out of here.
- 咖啡店这这边 - 继续走 我的车在这儿... - The cafeteria's this way. - Just keep walking. My wheels are here...
等等 我们这要干嘛? Wait. What are we doing?
我们去加拿大 We're going to Canada.
Susanna 你没疯 Susanna, you're not crazy.
好吗? 你不必呆在这儿 Okay? You don't need to be here.
我曾设法自杀 Toby I tried to kill myself, Toby.
- 什么 你只不过吃了几片阿司匹林... - 我吃了一瓶 - What, you took some aspirin... - I took a bottle of aspirin.
那就要在这儿关一年? Susanna 这毫无道理 好吗? And that buys you a year in this place? Susanna, that's bullshit, okay?
他们是在摧毁你 They're breaking you.
来吧 好吗? 一切都不同了 伙计 Now come on, all right? Everything's changing, man.
他们哪里会知道什么是正常? What the fuck do they know about being normal?
我在这有朋友 I have friends in here.
谁? 他们? Who? Them?
那些女孩... Susanna Those girls... Susanna.
她们都是活在幻想世界的疯子 They're eating grapes off of the wallpaper.
好吗? 他们是疯子 Okay? They're insane.
如果他们是 那我也是 If they are, I am.
不 不是的 No. No.
宝贝 听着 跟我走 Baby, listen. Come with me.
我爸爸给了我五千美元 Look, my dad gave me five grand.
好吗? 我们去那儿 在丛林里建个小木屋 Okay? We can go up there. We can build a cabin in the woods.
Susanna 我知道这听起来很疯狂... Susanna, look. I know that this sounds crazy...
但是我觉得我爱你 but I think I love you.
跟我走 好吗? So come with me, okay?
跟我走 Come with me.
- 你想离开这儿 不是吗? 我是说... - 是的 - You wanna leave, don't you? I mean... - Yes.
我想离开... I wanna leave...
但不是跟你 but not with you.
不是跟你 Not with you.
对不起 I'm sorry.
Susanna 等一下 Susanna, wait a second.
为什么这样做? Why did you do that?
晚上来修电灯泡 Fix the lightbulb at night.
我明早就不在这个病房工作了... I'm not here in the morning...
那时候你应该在画画或什么的 所以... and that's when you like to draw your pictures and stuff, so...
John? John?
为什么喜欢我? Why do you like me?
我就是喜欢你 I just like you.
仅此而已 That's all.
我希望你会好起来 I wish you were getting better, though.
我想带你出去看电影... I would take you out to go see a movie...
或做点别的 or something.
那真好 That'd be nice.
不! 我的脸! No! My face!
我没事! I'm okay!
走开... 别管她 她没事 Just step... Let her be. She's fine.
Polly 隔离间 把她带到隔离间 快 Polly. Seclusion. Take her to seclusion. Come on.
- 抓住你了 - 走 - I got you. - Come on.
我的脸怎么了? 我的脸 怎么会这样? What happened to my face? My face. Why?
安静 没事的 Quieten down. You're all right.
- 我的脸! - 你没事 - My face! - You're all right.
我好丑! 我的脸! I'm ugly! My face!
重要的是... And the important thing is...
迪斯尼世界就位于距离4号州际公路交叉口... that Disney World is located just a few miles from the crossing point...
仅几英里的地方... of Interstate 4 at...
Polly怎么了? What happened to Polly?
还能怎么了? 没有人想要吻她呗 What needs to happen? No one's ever gonna kiss her.
听 他们要在佛罗里达建一个新的迪斯尼乐园 Look. They're building a new Disneyland in Florida.
如果我能在那儿工作 我要专门演灰姑娘 If I could have any job in the world, I'd be a professional Cinderella.
你演白雪公主 Polly可以演老鼠米妮(米老鼠的女朋友) You could be Snow White, and Polly could be Minnie Mouse.
那样 每个人都会想拥抱她 亲吻她 爱护她... And then everyone would hug her and kiss her and love her...
没人了解那个大头面具下 有张怎样的脸 知道吗? and no one would know what's inside that big giant head, you know?
钥匙给我 Give me your keys.
我的脸! My face!
嘿 Polly! Hey, Polly!
- 我是Susanna - 只管弹点什么 - It's Susanna. - Just play something.
如果动动嘴就管用 我们早就离开这儿了 If talking did shit, we'd be out of here by now.
来吧 Come on.
# 如果你一个人 感到生活的孤独 # # When you're alone and life is making you lonely #
# 你总是可以去市区 # # you can always go downtown #
# 当你忧虑 当你厌倦喧嚣与匆忙 # # When you've got worries all the noise and the hurry #
# 我也感同身受 # # seems to help I know #
# 到市区去 # # downtown #
# 在城市的车流中欣赏音乐 # # Just listen to the music in the traffic in the city #
# 五彩的霓虹灯下徜徉街头 # # linger on the sidewalks where the neon lights are pretty #
# 怎么可能会迷路 # # How can you lose #
# 那里灯火明亮 # # The lights are much brighter there #
# 忘掉烦恼 抛却忧心 # # you can forget all your troubles. Forget all your cares and go #
- # 到市区去 # - 回房间去 拜托了 77 - # downtown # - Back to your room, please. 77
- # 去市区吧 一切都会好起来 # - 拜托 回房间吧 - # Things'll be great when you're downtown # - Please. Back in your room.
- # 美好的事情在等着你 # - McWilley会被吵醒的 - # Everything's waiting for you # - McWilley will wake up.
- # 感受这个节奏 # - Susanna 把吉他给我 - # Just listen to the rhythm # - Susanna, give me the guitar.
- 你会害我被炒鱿鱼的 Lisa - # 你会跟他翩翩起舞 # - You're gonna get me fired. Lisa. - # You'll be dancing with him too #
# 在午夜之前 # # before the night is over #
- Susanna 把吉他给我 - # 再度欢颜 # - Susanna, give me the guitar. - # happy again #
- 哦 - 没事 过来 - Oh, yeah. - It's okay. Come here.
你会害我被开除的 知道吗? You're gonna get me fired, you know that?
# 到市区去 # # Downtown #
# 一切都会好起来 # # Everything's great #
# 当你人在市区 # # when you're downtown #
我要把你报上去 I'm writing you up.
我厌倦你们的鬼把戏了 I am sick of this bullshit.
她在这儿吗? Is she here?
你可以进去了 You can go in now.
- 她做什么了? - 她们给McWilley护士下药 - What did she do? - They drugged Nurse McWilley.
早上好 Susanna Good morning, Susanna.
- 早上好 - 你好吗? - Good morning. - How are you?
挺好的吧 I'm fine, I guess.
坐下 Sit down.
你看起来很疲倦 You look tired.
Polly昨晚崩溃了 我们熬夜给她唱歌... Lisa和我 Polly freaked out last night, and we stayed up singing to her... Lisa and I.
你和Lisa成了朋友? Have you become friends with Lisa?
- 怎么? 不好吗? - 你觉得好不好? - Why? Is that bad? - Does it feel bad?
挺好 No.
来这之前 你有很多女性朋友吗? Before you came here, did you have many girlfriends?
没几个 Not really.
可不可以这样说 来这儿之前... Would you say that, before you came here...
你的朋友 主要是男孩 男人们? your friends consisted mainly of boys, of men?
这上面写着我性滥交? Does it say in there that I'm promiscuous?
为什么要用这个词? Why do you choose that word?
我跟多少男人上床... How many guys would I have to sleep with...
会被认为是性滥交... 按教科书上的定义? to be considered promiscuous... textbook promiscuous?
- 你认为呢? - 十个 八个 五个 - What do you think? - Ten. Eight. Five.
跟我同龄的男生 要睡多少女生才会被认为是性滥交? And how many girls would a guy my age have to sleep with to be promiscuous?
十个? 二十个? 一百零九个? Ten? Twenty? A hundred and nine?
有性滥交冲动者... Someone who's impulsively promiscuous...
会在房间里跟客人性交... might engage in a sex act with a guest in their room...
然后在同一天... and then engage in another sex act...
还会跟仆人上床 during the same day with an orderly.
我被监禁 就是因为亲吻仆人 给男朋友口交? Am I in trouble for kissing an orderly or giving my boyfriend a blow job?
Melvin说 你对自己的病 有些有趣的理论 Melvin says you have some very interesting theories about your illness.
你相信 生活中有一股神秘的逆流 You believe there is a mystical undertow in life.
"阴影流沙" "Quicksands of shadows."
我的另一个理论是你们不知道自己在干什么 And another one of my theories is that you people don't know what you're doing.
不过你也承认 无法应付这"流沙" Still you acknowledge there is a problem coping with this quicksand.
我无法应付这医院 我要离开这儿 I have a problem coping with this hospital. I wanna leave.
我不能同意 I can't do that.
我把自己签进来 也就可以把自己签出去 I signed myself in. I should be able to sign myself out.
你签字同意我们全权负责 我们决定你何时出院 You signed yourself into our care. We decide when you leave.
你还没痊愈 Susanna You're not ready for it, Susanna.
你的病情发展到高峰了 Your progress has plateaued.
- 你很失望吧? - 我很矛盾 - Does that disappoint you? - I'm ambivalent.
这是我新近最喜欢的词 In fact, that's my new favorite word.
你知道它是什么意思吗 矛盾? Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
- 我不在乎 - 如果这是你最喜欢的词 我... - I don't care. - If it's your favorite word, I would...
它的意思是"我不在乎" 就这意思 It means "I don't care." That's what it means.
恰恰相反 Susanna... On the contrary, Susanna...
矛盾意味着两种强烈的对立情感 ambivalence suggests strong feelings in opposition.
其前缀 和"怀有二心"一样 是"二者"的意思 The prefix, as in "ambidextrous," means "both."
主体部分 在拉丁语中 意指"力量" The rest of it, in Latin, means "vigor."
这个词意味着... The word suggests that you are torn...
你被两种对立的力量撕扯 between two opposing courses of action.
我是走还是留? Will I stay or will I go?
我是正常人还是精神病? Am I sane or am I crazy?
那不是什么对立的力量 Those aren't courses of action.
是的 亲爱的 对某些人来说是的 They can be, dear, for some.
嗯 那么 我选错词了 Well, then, it's the wrong word.
不 我认为这个词儿 妙到毫颠 No. I think it's perfect.
"这是个什么世界? "What world is this?
什么地域? What kingdom?
哪个世界的哪个陆地?" What shores of what worlds?"
这是你现在面临的大问题 Susanna It's a very big question you're faced with, Susanna.
关乎你人生道路的选择 The choice of your life.
你还要怎样纵容你的缺陷? How much will you indulge in your flaws?
你的缺陷是什么? 那些是缺陷吗? What are your flaws? Are they flaws?
如果你仍执迷不悟 恐怕要在医院里呆一辈子 If you embrace them, will you commit yourself to hospital for life?
重大的问题 艰难的选择 Big questions. Big decisions.
难怪你声称不在乎 Not surprising you profess carelessness about them.
说完了? Is that it?
到目前为止 For now.
这边走 Susanna This way, Susanna.
John被转到男病区了... John was moved to the men's ward...
Lisa再没从Wick医生的办公室回来 and Lisa never came back from Dr. Wick's office.
我们生活在充满疑惑的年代 We live in a time of doubt.
我们曾信赖的政局不再稳定可靠 The institutions we once trusted no longer seem reliable.
- 停止战争! - 我们生活富足 可是国家机制却... - End the war now! - We are rich but our system...
Daisy寄明信片了 讲的都是她的新公寓 Daisy sent us a postcard all about her new apartment.
她还养了只猫 She got a pussycat.
Lisa在哪儿? Where's Lisa?
你知道的 You know where she is.
就是被送去别的病房了 They just put her in another ward.
我觉得你该起来了 I think you need to get up.
我就想躺一会儿 就一小会儿 I'm just going to rest for a while. Just a little while.
你想怎样? 你要干什么? What do you want? What are you doing?
操! 你... Fuck! You...
不好意思 太冷了? Sorry. Too cold?
操你妈 你干嘛呢? 快把我弄出来! What the fuck are you doing? Get me the fuck out of this tub!
你自己出来 Get yourself out.
Lisa在哪儿? Lisa到底在哪儿? Where's Lisa? Where the fuck is Lisa?
怎么了? 没她你就出不来? What's the matter? Can't hack it without her?
就因为给Polly唱歌 你们就要撵走她? 我们是在帮她 You banish her for singing to Polly? We were trying to help her.
我们是在帮她! 这里简直就是法西斯刑房! We were trying to help her! This place is a fascist torture chamber!
你错了 No.
我在州立医院工作过 相比之下 这里简直是五星级酒店 See, I worked in state hospitals. This place is a five-star hotel.
# 喔 主啊 拾起一大团棉花 # # Oh, Lordy, pick a bale of cotton #
- # 喔 主啊 拾起一大团棉花 # - 我能忍受一群疯子 - # Oh, Lordy, pick a bale of cotton # - I can take a lot of crazy shit
对我尽情发疯 但是你... from a lot of crazy people, but you...
你不是疯子 you are not crazy.
那我是什么 哈? 他妈的我脑子怎么啦? Then what's wrong with me, huh? What the fuck's going on inside my head?
告诉我呀 Val医生 你的见鬼诊断是什么呀? Tell me, Dr. Val. What's your diag-nonsense?
你不过是个又懒惰又任性 You are a lazy, self-indulgent little girl
想把自己弄疯的小丫头 who is driving herself crazy.
哦 这就是你的医学见解 哈? Oh, is that your own medical opinion, huh?
这就是你从夜校进修学来的 Is that what you've learned in your advanced studies at night school
黑人嬷嬷的那一套? for Negro welfare mothers?
我说啊 Melvin没脑子 Wick脑子有病... I mean, Melvin doesn't have a clue, Wick is a psycho...
而你 你化装成医生 and you, you pretend you're a doctor.
你签表单 发放药物 You sign the charts, and you dole out meds.
但Valerie小姐 你不是医生 But youse ain't no doctor, Miss Valerie.
你不过是个无足轻重的黑人保姆 Youse ain't nothing but a black nursemaid.
你终于说出口了 And you're just throwing it away.
还想去佛罗里达吗? You still wanna go to Florida?
Lisa 我们需要钱 不是吗? Lisa, we need money, don't we?
- 你没把药咽下去吧? - 没 但我只有... - You've been tonguing your meds, right? - Yeah, but I only have...
他们又把我弄晕 They gave me shocks again.
知道吗 Jamie? 我得离开这儿 All right, Jamie? I have to get out of here.
我是Susanna I'm Susanna.
我们在干嘛? What are we doing?
什么东西? What is it?
"尊敬的先生 请给Vicar大街23号的 "Dear sir, please give Daisy Randone assistance
Daisy Randone 安装一部电话" installing a telephone at 23 Vicar Street."
我还以为 我们是去佛罗里达呢 I thought we were going to Florida.
没错 我们只是在弄到机票前 先在那儿歇歇脚 We are. We just need a place to crash till we get plane tickets.
停车 Come on.
衣服真酷 Nice coat.
Lisa Lisa Lisa, Lisa.
怎么了? What?
你不想要我 Tony You don't want me, Tony.
我想要 宝贝儿 Yes, I do, baby.
不 你不想 我是个疯子 No, you don't. I'm a crazy girl.
你是个疯子 我们就不能来点一夜情? You're crazy, so we can't have one night of bliss?
我是疯子 我说真的 I am a crazy girl. Seriously.
- 你在疯人院呆过? - 是的 - You've been in a hospital? - Yes.
你能看到紫色的人吗? Do you see purple people?
我朋友就能看到 My friend, he saw purple people.
然后医院的人过来把他带走了 And so the state came and took him away.
他不喜欢那儿 He didn't like that.
过了段时间 他声称再没看见紫色的人了 Some time went by, and he told them he didn't see purple people no more.
他好了 He got better.
没有 他还是能看到 No. He still sees them.
- 快点 我们得走了 - 嘿 拦住她! - Come on. We gotta split. - Hey, somebody stop her!
她妈的婊子把我钱包掏走了! She took my fucking wallet!
是谁 Identify yourself.
Susanna和... 是我 Susanna It's Susanna and... It's Susanna.
Daisy? Daisy?
- 你带安定了? - 带了 - You got Valium? - Yeah.
很好 OK.
噢 喔 房子不错 Oh, wow. Cool pad.
嘿 Daisy Hey, Daisy.
别紧张 伙计 放松点 Peace, man. Peace.
很抱歉我以前太犯贱 惹你不高兴 送给你的 Come on. I'm sorry for being a bitch. I was a drag. That's for you.
那是Ruby That's Ruby.
我爸爸买给我的 My dad bought her for me.
这是折叠沙发床 This is the Castro Convertible.
- 可以拉开 - 好的 - It pulls out. - Yeah.
- 洗手间在哪儿? - 就在那儿 - Where's the bathroom? - Right there.
- 没有浴缸 - 没有 - You don't have a tub. - No, I don't.
- 楼上呢? - 也没有 - What about upstairs? - No.
好了 Yeah. Okay.
你俩是逃出来了 还是怎么? So, what, did you two escape or what?
其实我们要去佛罗里达 Actually, we're going to Florida.
你这儿只有芥末和鸡 All you have is mustard and your chickens.
那么 你俩准备去佛罗里达干嘛? So, what are you girls going to do in Florida?
我要去新开的迪士尼乐园当灰姑娘 I'm going to be the new Cinderella at Walt Disney's new theme park.
Susanna去当白雪公主 Susanna's gonna be Snow White.
你要是想来也行 You can come if you want.
你可以... 你可以当吃意粉的可卡犬 You can... you can be the cocker spaniel that eats spaghetti.
我想做煎饼 I wanna make pancakes.
我累了 我要睡觉 I'm tired. I wanna go to bed.
明天早上 我想明儿早上做 In the morning. I want to make pancakes in the morning.
街角有家超市 There's a market on the corner.
锅在水槽下面 Pans are under the sink.
餐具在那边的抽屉里 Silver's in that drawer.
你们有钱吗? Do you have any money?
你们在佛罗里达有能落脚的地方吗? Do you have some sort of a safety net down there?
有没有认识的人住在那里? People you know down there in Florida?
有亲戚么? Relatives?
有朋友么? 或者其他的什么? Friends? Anything?
有 Yeah.
给你做煎饼的 早上动静小点儿 This is for your pancakes. Don't make a lot of noise in the morning.
我喜欢晚起 I like to sleep late.
想下床的时候 我才会下来 I'll come down when I'm ready.
把安定给我 Give me the Valium.
我们不用你爸爸的钱 We don't need your daddy's money.
那就放那儿 Then leave it there.
把该死的安定给我 Just give me the fucking Valium.
- 这是什么 嗯? 是什么? - 放开 - What's this, huh? What's this? - Let go.
- 在胳膊上试用新餐具呐? - 放开我 - Trying out your new silver? - Get the fuck off me.
- 想减少老爸的"性"趣? - Lisa - Less appealing for daddy? - Lisa.
- 怎么不看看你自己的胳膊 混蛋 - 我有病 Daisy 大家都知道 - Look at your own arm, asshole. - I'm sick, Daisy. We know that.
但你已经是所谓的"康复"了 却在这儿扮演贝蒂妙厨 But you're in so-called "recovery" playing Betty Crocker
把自己割得像火腿 cut up like a goddamn Virginia ham.
别说了 行不行? Just stop it, okay?
跟我说说明白 Daisy... Help me understand, Daisy...
我还以为你不吃安定呢 'Cause I thought you didn't do Valium.
告诉我这里有什么安全可言 Tell me how this safety net is working for you.
告诉我你没有拿着刀片贴着皮肤 Tell me that you don't take that blade and drag it across your skin
然后鼓起勇气割下去 and pray for the courage to press down.
告诉我你爸爸怎么帮你处理这些的 Tell me how your daddy helps you cope with that.
让我明白点儿 Illuminate me.
我爸爸爱我 My father loves me.
我想也是 用一整颗男人的心爱着你 I bet, with every inch of his manhood.
哦 上帝啊 Oh, God.
我要去睡觉了 I'm going to sleep now.
明早过后请离开 Please be gone in the morning.
Lisa 你就是嫉妒... You're just jealous, Lisa...
因为我康复了... Because I got better...
因为我被释放了... Because I was released...
因为我还有希望... Because I have a chance...
获得新生的希望 at a life.
他们释放你 不是因为你康复了 Daisy They didn't release you because you're better, Daisy.
他们只是放弃了 They just gave up.
你管这叫新生? You call this a life, hmm?
花爸爸的钱 买洋娃娃 买小饰品... Taking daddy's money, buying your dollies and your knick-knacks...
吃他做的鸡 让自己肥得像头母牛? and eating his fucking chicken, fattening up like a prize heifer?
你不过是换汤不换药 You changed the scenery but not the fucking situation
疯人院仍然要来你这出诊 and the warden makes house calls.
而且 大家都知道... And everybody knows...
都知道你爸上了你 everybody knows that he fucks you.
他们不知道的是 你乐在其中 What they don't know is that you like it.
- 对吧? 你乐在其中 - 闭上你他妈的的鸟嘴! - Hmm? You like it. - Shut the fuck up!
嘿 伙计 没事儿 没啥大不了 Hey, man. It's cool. It's okay.
挺好的 这样挺好的 有个男人是混蛋... It's fine. It's fucking fine. A man is a dick...
有个男人是混蛋 是鸡... is a man is a dick is a chicken...
是爸爸 是安定 是窥视镜 管他呢 is a dad, a Valium, a speculum, whatever.
对吧? 管他呢 Hmm? Whatever.
你甘心做Randone夫人 You like being Mrs. Randone.
没准儿你早就心里有数了 对吧? Probably all you've ever known, huh?
祝你们在佛罗里达玩得开心 Have fun in Florida.
她下来过吗? Has she come down yet?
没有 No.
但这鸟歌都播一早上了! But she's been playing that shit all morning!
Daisy? Daisy?
Daisy Daisy.
噢 天呐! Oh, my God!
真蠢 What an idiot.
- 这里需要救护车 - 还是改要灵车吧 - Yes. I need an ambulance. - Make it a hearse.
Daisy Randone 我想她是自杀了 Daisy Randone. I think she killed herself.
在Vicar大街23号 请快一点 23 Vicar Street. Yes. Please hurry.
是你逼死了她 现在还拿她的钱 You pressed her buttons. Now you're taking her money.
拜托 我可没逼死她 是她一直在等自杀的理由 Please. I didn't press shit. She was waiting for an excuse.
快点 收拾好 我们得走了 知道吗? Come on. Pack up. We have to go, all right?
我们得走了 我们有钱花了 We have to go. Now we have money.
Susanna 别犯傻 Susanna, don't be stupid.
好 行 你就犯傻吧你 All right. Fine. Be stupid.
得给小猫咪买个装便便的沙盒 We should send someone for a litter box.
嘿? Hey?
我能... 我能抱抱它吗? Can I... can I pet the kitty?
恩 轻点 Yeah. Be careful.
你好 小猫咪 Hello, pussycat.
猫猫! Kitty!
真可爱 You're so cute.
查房 Checks.
Georgina去哪儿了? Where's Georgina?
她今晚和Polly睡 She's staying with Polly tonight.
她们在逗你的猫玩呢 They're playing with your cat.
找到Lisa了吗? Did they find Lisa?
还没 No.
我没能阻止她 I couldn't stand up to her.
是个人都应该做点什么的 A decent person would have done something.
让她闭嘴 Shut her up.
或者上楼去 Gone upstairs.
跟Daisy谈谈 Talked to Daisy.
Melvin说你去了楼上 Melvin said you went upstairs.
太晚了 Too late.
若是你去得及时 会跟她说些什么? What would you have said to her?
我不知道 I don't know.
我很抱歉 That I was sorry.
我永远不知道 她当时的感受 That I'll never know what it was like to be her.
但我知道 自杀的感觉 But I know what it's like to want to die.
想微笑 却太难 How it hurts to smile.
努力调和自己的思想 但就是办不到 How you try to fit in, but you can't.
于是伤害自己的肉体 How you hurt yourself on the outside
以期能毁灭内心的痛苦 to try to kill the thing on the inside.
Susanna 你能告诉我这些 固然很好... Susanna, it's all well and good to tell me all this...
但你更得将这些感受 告诉医生 But you've got to tell some of this to your doctors.
我连自己是什么病都不清楚 怎么能够康复? How the hell am I supposed to recover when I don't even understand my disease?
但你确实了解 But you do understand it.
你刚才讲的都很清楚明了 You spoke very clearly about it a second ago.
我觉得你应该放下它 But I think what you've got to do is put it down.
抛开它 只记到日记里去 Put it away. Put it in your notebook.
把它从你心中释放出来 But get it out of yourself.
放手 别再和它纠结下去 Away, so you can't curl up with it anymore.
Lisa认为这是一种天赋... Lisa thinks it's a gift...
能让你看清事实的天赋 that it lets you see the truth.
Lisa在这儿呆了八年了 Lisa's been here for eight years.
对不起 I'm so sorry.
- 我简直一无是处 - 没关系 听我说 - I was a pig. - It's all right. Listen,
一定不要留在这儿 明白吗? do not drop anchor here, understand?
很好 Good.
当你不想去感受死亡的时候... When you don't want to feel...
它就像是一场梦 death can seem like a dream.
但当面对死亡... But seeing death...
真正面对它时... really seeing it...
那场梦就成为无稽之谈 makes dreaming about it fucking ridiculous.
也许有一天 回首往事... Maybe there's a moment, growing up...
突然一夜长大... 也许... when something peels back... maybe...
我们揭露秘密 是因为我们不自信 We look for secrets because we can't believe our minds.
我想念Lisa 但没有她的日子好过多了 And though I missed Lisa, life was easier without her.
- 思绪难以控制 - 可是一旦身处真实世界里头... - A thought is a hard thing to control. - Out in the real world...
我只知道 我又能去感知事物了 All I know is that I began to feel things again.
- 疯狂 理智 不论如何... - 聪明 愚蠢... - Crazy, sane, whatever I was... - Stupid, smart...
我知道要重返世间 只有一种办法 I knew there was only one way back to the world...
就是在这里与人交心倾诉 and that was to use the place to talk.
- 我的舌头成为一种利器 - 所以我一个星期... - My tongue becomes this intrusion. - So I saw the great Dr. Wick...
见Wick医生三次... three times a week...
我对她倾诉了自己内心深处的想法 and I let her hear every thought in my head.
你觉得我有超能力 或者是天赋异禀之类的吗? Do you think maybe I have ESP or something, that I'm gifted?
有可能 Perhaps.
你觉得我能在感恩节回家吗? You think I can be home by Thanksgiving?
这几个星期我都很正常 Nothing's happened in weeks, you know.
关键是你要学会自制 The point is control.
对啊 瞧 我能自制 而且不需药物辅助... Yeah, and here I am, in control, off meds...
头不痛了 睡得也香 no headaches, sleeping sound.
你愿意帮我吗? 你可以帮我吗? Oh, will you help me? Can you help me?
你不再需要任何帮助 You don't need to be helped any longer.
你一直都有着回到堪萨斯的能力 You've always had the power to go back to Kansas.
- 真的? - 那你之前怎么不告诉她? - I have? - Then why didn't you tell her before?
说了她也不会相信我的 Because she wouldn't have believed me.
她得学着自己去发掘 She had to learn it for herself.
你都学到了什么 桃乐茜? What have you learned, Dorothy?
嗯... Well...
我学到了... I think that it...
光想着回去看Henry叔叔和Emma婶婶是不够的 that it wasn't enough just to want to see Uncle Henry and Auntie Em...
如果我再重新审视自己的内心想法... and that if I ever go looking for my heart's desire again...
会发现没有什么比重返家园更让我向往... I won't look any further than my own backyard...
因为如果不曾经历这一切... because if it isn't there...
我不会明白 这个想法一直都在 从未变过 I never really lost it to begin with.
对吧? Right?
谢谢你 Joe Thanks, Joe.
滚 Go away.
死开! Go away!
Lisa Lisa.
是我 It's me.
好久不见... It's been a while...
我只想过来打声招呼 and I just wanted to say hey.
- 你还好吗? - 好得很 - You okay? - Fabulous.
Susana Susana.
你要迟到了 Gretta医生在等着你啊 You're gonna be late. Gretta's waiting for you.
来了 Ok.
我要去见Wick医生了 I gotta go. Dr. Wick.
他们还在整你? They still fucking with you?
他们 呃... They're, um...
其实 他们准备让我出去了 Actually, they're letting me out.
那太好了 Oh, that's great.
你快去吧 You better go.
呃 我爸给我找了份工作 是一份兼职... Uh, well, my dad got me a job, a part-time job...
在哈佛广场的一家书店工作 at a bookstore in Harvard Square.
我住的公寓也有电话 所以我可以... And I got an apartment with a phone so I can...
随时联系 Stay in touch. Uh-huh.
嗯 我会一星期见Sonia两次 Yep. And I'll be seeing Sonia twice a week.
你的长期计划就是... 打零工吗? Is that your long-term plan... to work in retail?
我的计划? 不 My plan? No.
那你打算做什么? Then what do you plan to do?
我打算写作 I plan to write.
Polly Clark Polly Clark.
Cynthia Crowley Cynthia Crowley.
Susanna Kaysen Susanna Kaysen.
- 我已经不需要这药了 - 这是安眠药 - You know, I don't think I need them. - Sleeping pills, darling.
你也想明天精神抖擞 对吧? 昨晚你可睡得不好哦 You want to be rested for tomorrow, don't you? Last night's a long one.
乖 下一个 Katie Cooper Good girl. Katie Cooper.
Rosemary Jones Rosemary Jones.
Teresa McCullian Teresa McCullian.
- 卡住了 废物 - 别紧张 - Stuck. Garbage. - Relax.
- 快点 - 快开门 - Come on - Come on. Open the door.
- 快! - 放开我! - Come on! - Leave me alone!
放手! Get off!
- 快! 这边! - 放手! - Come on! This way! - Stop it!
放开我! Get off me!
Ruby Ruby.
"如果我十指张开 能让自己更像人类... "If I spread my fingers, my hand looked more human...
那我照办 so I did that.
但让手指张开很累人 所以我让双手放松... But it was tiring holding my fingers apart, so I let them relax...
然后 我翻转到手背 and then, I turned my hand over.
天啊 Oh, my God.
但手背好不到哪儿去 我的青筋突起" And the back of it wasn't much better. My veins bulged."
闭嘴 我在读着 闭嘴! Shut up. I'm reading. Shut up!
Lisa Lisa.
"我可以很坦诚地说 我的记忆已经转变 "I can honestly say that my memory has been transformed.
所以根据弗洛伊德的定义 我已经康复了 So by Freud's definition, I have achieved mental health.
我的出院记录写着 '康复' And my discharge sheet reads, 'recovered.'
康复" 'Recovered."'
别这样! Don't do this!
"无论如何 我都不要这样 "Whatever it was, I just didn't want it.
我要发掘新事物 Find something new.
塑造自己... Had my personality...
是否我已经停止与自己的性格争论? Had I stopped arguing with my personality?
'康复' 我们在读你写的书呢 'Recovered."' We were just reading your book.
我们想既然这是你最后一晚了 不如来个读书会 We figured since it's your last night, we'd have a little read-aloud.
共同分享你给这世间带来的智慧 Celebrate all the wisdom you're carrying into the world.
想学点东西 像正常人那样成长 You know, try to learn something, grow as people.
我们知道你小时候 被人绑在木板上 We read how when you were a baby, they strapped you to a board.
还有你认为Georgina并不想出去 而Polly则永远都不能... And how you think Georgina doesn't want to leave and Polly never will...
而我则是个彻头彻尾的疯婆娘 and that I'm criminally insane.
你们想干什么? What are you guys doing here?
"Lisa的双眸曾是魅力十足 而现在却空洞不堪" "Lisa's eyes, once so magnetic, now just look empty."
Lisa Lisa.
这是我的 That is mine.
"Georgina只骗那些会把她留在这儿的人 "Georgina lies only to people who keep her here.
有时候我认为她是想永远活在绿野仙境的幻想中 Sometimes I think she wants to live in Oz forever."
- 真有洞察力 - 你最好把这些东西删掉... - How perceptive. - You better erase that thing...
因为我爸是中央情报局的头儿... 'cause my father is the head of the CIA...
他随时都能要你命! and he could have you dead in minutes!
- "在这世上 外表很重要 - 天啊 - "In this world, looks are everything. - Oh, God.
有时候 我想Polly的乖巧单纯都只是伪装... Sometimes I think Polly's sweetness and purity aren't genuine at all...
是她一厢情愿地以为这样能让我们不嫌弃她的脸" but a desperate attempt to make it easier for us to look at her."
你真不赖啊 你病好了就来评价我们 So nice of you to pass judgement on us now that you're cured.
你在搞什么鬼 Lisa? What the fuck are you doing, Lisa?
如你所愿啊 我在扮演大反派呢 I'm playing the villain, baby, just like you want.
- 我试着给你你想要的一切 - 不 你没有 - I try to give you everything you want. - No, you don't.
你想看自己的病历 我帮你弄! 你想出去 我就帮你! You wanted your file, I found your file! You wanted out, I got you out!
你需要钱 我也帮你了! You needed money, I found you some!
我表里如一 我对你言行一致 我不像你把实话写在本子上! I'm consistent! I told you the truth! I didn't write it in a book!
我对你说的都是事实... I told you to your face...
我对Daisy说的也是众所周知却没人敢说的事实... and I told Daisy to her face what everybody knew and wouldn't say...
是她自己想不开自杀的 and she killed herself.
我他妈的就如你所愿 去演大反派 And I played the fucking villain, just like you wanted.
我怎么会这么想? Why would I want that?
因为这样就会显得你是好人 甜心 会显得你是好人 Because it makes you the good guy, sweet pea. Makes you the good guy,
你回来的时候 装做一副无邪悲痛的模样... and you come back here, all sweetness and light and sad and contrite...
大家都来探望你 赞扬着你的勇敢 and everybody sits, wringing their hands congratulating you and all your bravery.
而我把钱都给了你 自己得去公交车站跟男人谗媚讨小钱 Meanwhile, I'm blowing guys at a bus station for the money in her fucking robe!
- 别说了 Lisa! 她太... - 闭嘴 Polly! - Stop it, Lisa! She's too... - Shut up, Polly!
你要去哪儿? Where are you going?
- 我还没说完呢 你要去哪儿? - Lisa 够了 求你了! - I'm talking. Where are you going? - Lisa, stop it, please!
你要去哪儿? 我在跟你说话 Where are you going? I'm talking to you.
Susanna? Susanna?
咋了? 你不喜欢我了? What? You don't like me anymore?
不喜欢了! No, I don't!
- 因为你自由了? - 闭嘴! - 'Cause you're free? - Shut up!
你以为你自由了? 我才叫自由! You think you're free? I'm free!
- 你根本不知道自由是什么! - 求你了 Lisa! - You don't know what freedom is! - Please, Lisa!
我是自由的! I'm free!
我可以呼吸! I can breathe!
而你... 你那庸碌的人生只会令你窒息 And you... you're gonna go choke on your average fucking mediocre life.
生活中 很多事情都是一触即发的 You know, there are too many buttons in the world.
太多弦上之箭了 而它们... There's too many buttons, and they're just...
只是等待着被触发的机会 There's way too many just begging to be pressed.
随时都蓄势待发 They're just begging to be pressed.
箭在弦上 随时待发 You know? They're just begging to be pressed.
我就纳闷 And it makes me wonder.
真他妈的让我纳闷... You know, it really makes me fucking wonder...
怎么没人触发我? why doesn't anybody ever press mine?
为什么都忽略我? 为什么没有人... Why am I so neglected? Why doesn't anybody...
敢撕破假象 告诉我... reach in, rip out the truth and tell me...
我就一贱人 我爸妈希望我早死早超生? that I'm a fucking whore and that my parents wish I were dead?
因为你已经死了 Lisa! Because you're dead already, Lisa!
没人理会你死活 Lisa... No one cares if you die, Lisa...
那是因为你早已死了 because you're dead already.
你的心多冷血! Your heart is cold!
所以你才不断地重返这里 That's why you keep coming back here.
你不自由 You're not free.
你需要这地方来感受自己的存在 你真悲哀 You need this place. You need it to feel alive. It's pathetic.
天啊 God.
我已经白白浪费了一年光阴 I've wasted a year of my life.
也许外面的人全都是骗子 And maybe everyone out there is a liar.
也许整个世界... And maybe the whole world...
都是愚昧无知 is stupid and ignorant.
但我也情愿与之为伍 But I'd rather be in it.
我也情愿身在其中... I'd rather be fucking in it...
而不想在这儿跟你混 than down here with you.
Lisa Lisa.
不要 Don't.
求你不要 Please don't.
老天啊 Oh, God.
拿到手没? Did you get it?
这可是我跟男病房的那个人妖换来的 I had to trade with a transvestite in the men's ward.
谢谢 Thanks.
我真的没死 I'm not really dead.
我知道 I know.
我会想念你的 亲爱的Suzie I'm gonna miss you, Suzie Q.
不 你不会的 No, you're not.
你将会离开这里 然后去出去探望我 You're gonna get out of here, and you're gonna come and see me.
好吗? Okay?
是的 Yeah.
嘿 Georgina Hey, Georgina.
关于那些我写在本子里的话... You know all that stuff I write in my journal...
我都不知道自己说了些什么 I don't know what I'm saying.
只是些想法而已 They're just thoughts.
也许我才是谎话精 Maybe I'm a liar.
或许不是 Maybe not.
再见 See you.
Polly Polly.
如果我把Ruby留在这儿 你可以帮我照料它吗? You think if I left Ruby here, you'd take care of her for me?
等我回来治疗的时候 就让我跟它玩一把? Let me play with her when I come for my therapy?
- 好吗? - 好的 - Yeah? - Yeah, okay
谢谢你 Thank you.
拜拜 Ruby Bye, Ruby.
再见 Bye.
- 好 - 再见Susanna - Yeah. - Bye, Susanna.
刮腿毛的时候记得想我 Remember me when you shave your legs.
我被宣告康复... Declared healthy...
然后重返繁世 and sent back into the world.
我最后的诊断是: My final diagnosis:
康复的边界人格患者 A recovered borderline.
我还是搞不懂这是什么意思 What that means I still don't know.
我曾经疯狂过? Was I ever crazy?
或许吧 Maybe.
又或许疯狂的是人生 Or maybe life is.
嘿 我记得你 Hey. I remember you.
嘿 Hey.
你要去哪儿? Where are you going?
Burlingame街17号 17 Burlingame.
好的 All right.
发疯并不代表着崩溃... Crazy isn't being broken...
或是背负着不为人知的秘密 or swallowing a dark secret.
而是你我... It's you or me...
将情绪扩大化了 amplified.
如你曾经撒谎 并乐在其中 If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it.
如你曾盼望永远做个孩童 If you ever wished you could be a child forever.
她们并不完美... They were not perfect...
但她们是我的朋友 but they were my friends.
到了70年代... And by the '70s...
多数人都已出院... most of them were out...
如常人般生活 living lives.
有的人 曾与我相聚 Some I've seen...
而有的人 却再也不见 some never again.
但她们将永存在我心中 But there isn't a day my heart doesn't find them.
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